I am so scared that my bf is going to break up with me, I'm pulling away a-g-a-i-n. I've taken all of my stuff out of his apartment & would've shoved the key under his door, but there's no leeway for that.

And, while I'm pulling away, I don't want to. I hate it! But, I also don't want my bf to say that he really doesn't want my things to be in his place. That hurts too bad..I can't take that!

I don't have any technical reasons to assume that it's over between Eric & I. But, he barely called me while he was gone (10 days). He called me a total of 3 times in that time period. I tried very hard to give Eric his space and called him 3 times. Not bad, right? I went with the flow of conversation & time on the phone was less than one hour total. Probably a total of 45 minutes in that 10 days. Is that good??

I told Eric how much I missed him, and he didn't say that he missed me. He doesn't want to see me tonight, as he's getting in late & just wants to hit the hay when he finally gets home. No lovey remarks or tone of voice.

I am feeling so many negative thoughts. I just keep going down lower and lower.