Hello my friends, its been a rocky road in my existence, Almost envying those around because of my own hate to myself. Depression is the most live shattering illness at my stage. Being 17 hormones are fading yet still have a impact daily.

Professional care has shown no help what so ever to help. Therapy shows signs of frustratioin if everything, mainly do to the lack of help they( the therapists) put forth. I can no longer depend on a paid professional to fill my mind with positive thinking when they themselves no my thinking is netural thought processes.

My life lately is so confusing,frustrating and sad. I havent been myself in months, constantly going down the teenage path of immaturity of getting closer to there mistakes which last for years. I'm lately becoming a bum,a outcast of misbehaving and picking on others. DOES ANYONE know how I'm feeling? I'm loosing trust in myself to fit in with the cruelty I so strongly speak against.........

Lately these shootings have made me realize we as humans must be slaughtered to get recogniction. I've been to 5 or so funerals of my loved ones, they are now forgeten even my mom said she is slowly forgeting her parents, how they talk, and even more so how they acted, she hates it. Man kind is at a fault of public sin, their( the media) are living a lie of making life "just" that much harder on the victims family.....

God Bless VA tech, but also God Bless yourself even if your alive.