I've lied to myself and I've lied to my family. Specifically my husband and my two children. It really hurts to type this information. We almost lost our home because of me.

I'm a middle aged female who has been on Prozac for years. I lost my job and never recovered. I'm not making the money I had; and thought I could get it back. It hasn't happened. I'm in so much credit card debt--it's incredible. For example, I owe $17,000 to one credit card company. They have placed two judgements against just me. Not my husband. I've lied to my husband and he doesn't know how severe it is. I think--would it better if I weren't around? My husband would be ok but I cannot do that to my two kids. The walls are closing in. We had a levy on our checking account and one judgement took all our money. We have checks bouncing left and right. I work full time and part time. I'd work two full time jobs if I could. And when I'm not working--I sleep--I take Tylenol PM during the day or another sleepaid at night. I'm so ashamed I can't tell anyone. And now the anxiety is setting in. I become short of breath, lose feeling in my legs and tingling in my hands. I get angry at the simpliest of things. Please don't tell me to talk to my husband--because I don't want to see his anger.