Two weeks ago I got really, really 'out-of-control' drunk in front of my parents-in-law. My father-in-law had to carry me to the car. My husband had to work on that Saturday and my his parents invited me to a wine tasting. Needless to say, I lost control and drank way too much. I still don't know what went through my mind that day, since I usually don't even drink. What makes the whole situation worse is that I can't remember anything.

It took a lot of guts, but I did phone my father-in-law too apologize. Afterwards I felt even worse because he told me that I flirted with other men. It's one thing to get drunk, but another when you get so intoxicated that you shove your inhibitions to the side and flirt with other men in front of your parents-in-law. I mean it is unforgivable! I love my husband and can't believe how I acted.

Since then my friends have told me that most people have flirted with other people while drunk, but is still does not make me feel any better about anything. Since that day the guilt has consumed my every thought. I lie awake at night thinking about it. I haven't seen his parents since, and I don't plan to see them any time soon.

You see, that day was also the two-year anniversary of my mother's death, not that it is an excuse for my behavior. Since her death I became really depressed, and it took me months before I got help. I have been on medication for a while now, and I really felt a lot better but since that day, I just can't manage to pick myself up again. I am now feeling as bad, if not worse. Even the meds is not helping me.

Could it be the guilt causing my depression? If so, please give me advice on how to cope with it.