(((((((((((Spaz))))))))))))))

You are still grieving over the loss of someone dear to you. There is no time limit on grieving. It's ok, you are allowed. But canders is right, you can't play the "what if" game. Things happen the way they happen. I drove myself nuts with the "what if" game when my mom passed. I finally had to buck up and say "enough of that!" It will eat you up inside if you don't begin to let it go hon.

Be good to yourself.....*Gentle Hugs*
J