Thank you SnakeCharmer.
You are right, I think he would feel guilty but it would be my fault and maybe he would enjoy it.
He had sex before he became catholic, he is little bit older then me and became strongly fanatic and sometimes it feels like he is lying to me because he just doesn't want me so he says all of this.
I can't understand people like him. Maybe I'm a deamon who wants to seduce an angel but maybe he is liar and it worries me the most.
Maybe he just doesn't feel any desire with me and he is not my boyfriend, he is just a close friend, he is my best friend but I haven't even kissed him

He gives me much attention, he has no girlfriend (and he is not gay), he cares for me, he is so sweet to me but we are just friends... Sad but we are just friends. I hope it doesn;t mean that I'm like a sister, it would be worse than hate.