Thank you for this reply, Bubbles00: Unfortunately, what you have written in your reply is exactly what I was writing about when I opened this thread. And equally unfortunately, as I wrote when I opened this thread, I don't know what to say that will help. I do hope that entering university will open new horizons for you. I do believe having a dream or two can be very helpful... (even if you never pursue it to any serious degree.) A dream or two can be a star to guide you through the darkness. As another person wrote here, the fact that you're going to uni, means that you're doing something right My very best wishes to you...