My girlfriend is 18 years old and a heroinist. There. I said it. She's also the most intelligent, sweet, adorable, funny, caring and empathetic person I have ever met. I love her more than words can tell...
She says she doesn't prostitute because she knows I'd hate it for her to get hurt... instead she's got these depts to dealers and addicts who beat her up if she wont return it. It wasn't too long ago she coughed blood and got her rib broken.
I used to provide for her... I'm only a 17 year old, mentally unstable girl myself but I did my best. I lied, I stole, I sold my things in order to get money. My mother noticed how her money was missing and when I broke down and told her why she contacted my girlfriend, in a respectful way but now she refuses to accept any more of my money.
She says she doesn't want to hurt me more than she already has, and insists on paying me back... I don't want her money. I want for her to be safe. That's all.
I'm so scared, and lonely. Nobody seems to get me. I HAVE to protect her. She wont do it herself.
Any advice on how to help her without making it worse? How would those of you who are addicts prefer for your close ones to act like? I listen to her, tell her how strong she is and how proud I am when she's making progress and when she hates herself for relapsing I just remind her of how hard she tried, and how much better she's doing compared to when she first tried to quit.
I try to hide the fact that it breaks my heart when she nods, or goes into the bathroom to snort (she's stopped injecting, I'm so proud), but I know she knows me well enough to see it anyway. I can see the shame in her eyes... she's never had anyone who cares apart from me and I know she loves me a LOT. Please don't start the whole 'she's manipulating you' ********... she isn't. She isn't what people think 'all drugaddicts' are like at all....