Hello all, I don't know if it is okay to post on here or if its the right place to be doing so, but here goes anyways..
I'm a 32 year old male, I work in a management position in an extremely cut throat and demanding industry. I've been doing this for about 5 years and I have become very successful at what I do. I have a girlfriend of 2 years, that has relocated with me across the country to a position within the same organization.

for a long time now I have been becoming more and more stressed out, to a point where i'm feeling numb to a lot of things. Amazingly I have not been bringing my work home with me, which is probably the only reason why my relationship is still together right now. My significant other and I have been distant for a long time. She is not interested in any activities that I enjoy, and I am constantly doing what she likes to keep things "copacetic". She is not the type to show affection, or much of any similar emotions, which is unfortunate as I appreciate them and find them very comforting. I can be a very stubborn individual, and I make some things a lot more difficult than they need to be. I badly want to feel the love from a woman in ways that I have felt before, and although I know she loves me, she doesn't show it either physically or emotionally. Wanting something like this without receiving it is very difficult for me to deal with. sometimes my mind wanders and I start to think about finding happiness elsewhere, but I would rather have this work out.

As far as work goes, I am caught in a position where every day there are insurmountable odds to finish each day on a positive note. I don't believe there is any possible way to complete each day without any issues, but I am very successful in fixing issues as they happen and finding ways to lower the chance of them happening again. That being said, the toll it takes from always striving so hard and never being able to reach a goal, can be very overwhelming. I am the only one in charge of a decent amount of people, so showing weakness or self doubt is not an option. So I do not show either.

I do like my job, although it feels like it is killing me (doesn't make much sense I guess). I do love my spouse, although the lack of emotion is taking a serious toll on me...

It feels like I am a lone soldier fighting the same battle every day, then I go home to a cold unwelcoming house. I want to feel successful. I want to be wanted by my spouse. I've been doing this for so long and it is tearing me up inside..

This may seem like a typical problem that most guys have, and to a degree it is. I have had similar issues in the past with other jobs and other women, but it wasn't remotely comparable in intensity to what it is now..

I hope this isn't taken as being whiney, and I don't expect a miracle answer to my issues. I guess it just feels good to get it off my chest and hopefully someone out there can listen without being too judgemental.