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Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25
It's enjoyable to an extent but lately I don't get euphoria. I just get irritation, agitation, restlessness, etcetera. In march I had a truly harmless hypomanic episode that never got out of hand, never went to mania or psychosis, and that was awesome. But it is a rarity for me and I was foolish for playing with fire. I'm glad you can just take meds and calm down. For me I usually let it get way too far and then I do something stupid before medication can help me.
I would give anything to have a nice benign hypo episode...I would get so much done...but it's not gonna happen that way for me. I have too much negative stress going on right now.
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I also did many really stupid and bad things but I don't think it's because of hypomania. I doubt it, I'm not sure.
When I am agressive to other people it sometimes feels good and I know it's sick.
The most horrible thing is psychosis, strange but Xanax help me with this (voices and delusions and paranoias).
Sad but hypomanic episodes fade away too fast and when I'm depressed I can't remember how it was to feel like I felt when I had manic episodes.
I gave up all meds everytime I had manic episodes because I thought I'm okay but now I'm taking meds everyday because I'm afraid to do something too bad again.
Anyway I like hypomania. [I hope I won't regret these thoughts after a week].
I drink coffee all the time to get energy more and more.
Do you take any medication and how it helps you?