Yes shakespeare, I found a good therapist who has explained to me "why" I was misdiagnosed and he has told me that I am definitely "not" a narcissist. I even had a session with him today because I have had to deal with something for about two weeks now that has been severely triggering me. It has brought forward a lot of pain I had to deal with of "trying to talk" and my efforts disappeared and I just was not heard but instead was "further hurt" for something I really could not help. It was nice to have someone who understands "why" I would be so badly triggered by this situation too.
And he knows how the timing of it is bad for me considering the challenges I already had been overwhelmed with and the effort to try a new medication to help with that too ended up making it even worse.

I just don't get a break, I am still very much wrapped up in the trauma in so many ways and it has gotten to a point where my executive frontal lobe is very challenged and I am in a lot of pain. I am very distracted and forgetful at times and there was a hope this new medication would help with that, but it ended up making me very ill and very irritable and dizzy with jaw tremors and blury vision and diareaha. Ugh, the last thing I needed.

Sigh.....one day at a time.

OE