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Originally Posted by IrisBloom
I wish I could tell you there was an easy way to make all the bad feelings to go away, but there is not. I went through something similar with my brother, and a family friend. It took a few years of treatment for depression and anxiety to figure out that I was a victim, even if I didn't fight them off. Today (20 years later) I still suffer from depression, but I think I'm over those events. Things do get better. Forgive yourself for doing something you later regretted. And stick to your decision to not let your brother stay at your house. I think you should tell your parents what happened, but not until you come to terms with it. It might help your parents understand you. Even if they don't believe you, you got it off your chest. (((hugs)))
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Thank you IrisBloom,
I know what you mean about the victim part. In away I suppose. I realize I was at first... But then to just give up.... So mad at my young self. I think she is stupid. I know that is not fair too... I have great empathy for others... Not sure what my problem is.
I can't tell my parents, it's a weird relationship. Feelings and things were never somethng discussed. Constant argue and arger is really all I know.... Plus, I don't want anyone to know... You guys... (Tho that is proving hard... I thought there would be more), my T knows... I just can't talk.
Is there anyway to ignore it all, keep going? Pretty sure I have the stealing and drinking in check, I don't think I will slip. I don't thnk I want to have to say things out loud.