Very lonesome here usually because the only interactions I have with people are while I'm working and I'm a completely different person. They'd never guess this laughing, smiling, joke telling girl is actually sad, anxious and continually cycling through emotions.

I suppose the loneliness steams from feeling like I can't connect with anyone because I fear if I show them how I really am they won't want to know anymore. I've had several close friends in the past that I tried opening up to and they all hit the ground running or turned around and used my own words against me.