I know i'm bad but I don't think that being catholic is serious reason to not have sex esspecially if he had done this before.
I'm just obsessed, I try to escape from these thoughts but it's just impossible, when I see him, mostly of the time I think I want to make love with him , okay maybe I don't want sex but I want making love with him.
I know I won't escape from these feelings, I want to respect him but I want to make love with him and I want it too much. It's a problem for me, it makes me desperete sometimes.
I know I'm bad, I know I'm selfish but it doesn't save me.