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Old Aug 05, 2014, 06:53 PM
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Originally Posted by littlemiss44 View Post
Why can't you go impatient? I would get to a hospital asap..do you have a pdoc you can see soon if you won't go? I'm so sorry yr struggling so much. It seems that the hospital is yr only option right now. I mean I have skills I can tell you about like four square breathing. Take in a deep breath and hold for four seconds. Then exhale and hold for another four seconds. Repeat that four times while outlining a square in yr mind while ur doing it. Since you are so suicidal I think you need to get to a professional right away
I have tried this breathing (I posted a rather similar post before it was this bad, I hope I don't wear you guys out, and you responded to my post with this helpful method. I just don't always think of using this method because I have never known to try and fight these terrible thoughts) and I have tried distraction. It can be helpful but my thoughts and emotions overpower every time. I can't go inpatient because school starts next week and I have too much to do to get everything ready for my kids...which I am terrified about. Plus, I'm scared to tell my family I'm suicidal again and for my kids to have to go through another hospitalization.
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Every finger in the room is pointing at me
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