Thanks Christina, my pdoc called me this morning, this episode seems to be the result of a med adjustment and she is checking in on me. I told her the thoughts were worse but I didn't stress to her how badly they were I suppose (I don't think it was intentional, and today has been much scarier than any I've had). She said she would call me back early next week and to call her or go in if things got worse. The reasons I can't go in revolve around my kids.