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Old Aug 05, 2014, 08:06 PM
offthegrid offthegrid is offline
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I had sort of a chance to test this out today. I pretty much let the person talk and responded with simple replays (yes, no) but I think me tone betrayed me because it was a triggering topic for me. Its crazy for that person to think i wont get at least a bit emotional about that particular issue but i give up. I am a horrible friend, and embarrassing daughter, a freeloader for a sister. I have blantantly asked how this person wants me to respond in these cases but of course she doesnt know. I ended up being hung up on, getting my car taken (because I'm a jobless loser) and my family hates me and dont want to talk to me. They have long memories and no amount of apologizing is going to make them see me as nothing other than a bad guy now. Everything was easier when I just followed the mold and acted like whoever i happened to be around at the time. All I ever do is make problems for everybody else. Everything would be perfect if I was never born.

I am working on the issues they are talking about but not fast enough. Wanting to change or working toward it isn't good enough, only results.