something that might help... is to think of this as a bit of a temporary resting place. because... it is about being loved. and somewhere along the way we get this notion that for someone to love us is for someone to desire us. if they don't desire us... maybe they don't really love us. maybe they love / desire someone else. maybe they'll leave us or whatever. find us repulsive.

its okay to want to be loved.

what you say about being a little kid and wanting someone to look after you and take care of you is interesting...

i don't show that part to anyone. but i'm not close to anyone either. can't let people in. hurts too much.