So, I need to tell you gals about what just happen. It will seem a bit absurd. I was in the shower with all this pent up energy and I finally let it out, so I was pacing a bit and then I put my hands in the shower water with my thumbs touching and my hands out and then the lyrics to a NIN song came into my head "bow down before the one you serve, you're going to get what you deserve." But the song didn't actually come to me, it was like it was placed in my head, so I bowed down on the ground. Then I was thinking who am I bowing to? Jesus? That is who I bow to. But, then I realized since this was a nine inch nails song that was given to me it must be a pagan god. And I thought all those other times they thought I was psychotic it was just a pagan god. I told my husband this and he told me rationally that it was an insane thought and I needed to take a hold of it and then asked me if I could be trusted to be by myself. I told him yes.