For a long time now I've been feeling like I have no love in my life. Sometimes I wonder if I love my parents and I honestly don't know. I've always been taught to love my parents and I always tell them I love them before bed, school, or before they go to work. I'm not quite sure if I actually love them. A lot of times I catch myself saying "I hate you" or cursing them under my breath.
I've had a strong desire to love and to be loved. I daydream about about having perfect relationships (with family, friends, and boys).
I hold a lot of my feelings inside and sometimes I come close to spilling my guts to my friends and family, but stop myself because I'm afraid. I don't want to be judged. I don't feel connected to anyone anymore.
I don't date or hang out with my friends like I use to. I'm afraid to date and I will never ever get married. Holding my feelings in is becoming unbearably hard. I don't know how i feel anymore. I just feel lost does anybody have any tip on helping find a path or has anyone experienced this.