thanks for your answers!
It is very nice that you think about what might be going wrong for me.
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Originally Posted by atomicc
My best friend tells me that I am not as outgoing as she is
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that may be true for me, too!!
have also heard from several friends that I was "cool" but don't understand why because I try to be nice and people just won't let me talk.
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Originally Posted by atomicc
Maybe try a dating site?
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forgot to mention that I tried online dating but it was horrible and didn't work. the people I met were scary. also it cost money which I don't have anymore.
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Originally Posted by Bumblebuzz12
if it's meant to be then it will happen
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no, this doesn't work. I have been thinking like that for 8 years!!! this is not going to happen while I am alone at home.
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maybe your extravagant dresses and your beauty are too much for them to handle.
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my style is not that crazy and I don't look like a model either. I look average. I don't think there is a problem with my appearance. during 8 years how I look has changed enough times to be sure.
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Enjoy being single!
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I can live by myself very well. I had enough time to find out how to do that and feel free. but now I am realizing that another decade later this will still be the same. and it makes me sad. I am not such a horrible person to deserve to die alone. but it looks like I will. my family always asks me why I never bring anybody. and I cannot answer anything but that nobody would even speak to me. not my family's pressure is making me sad. being excluded and avoided for so many years makes me sad.
when I am feeling good many times I forget that I have been so alone for such a long time and feel like everything is still possible and that it's okay to be alone. but there is a reason for that long time to happen.
this is not normal. and I figured out it will not change all by itself. this is a long enough time to wait for change.
I am at an age when almost everybody around me is already taken and there are only people left single who don't want relationships. the possibilities are getting less and less. and the older I get the more unlikely I will find somebody.
and I spent all my young adulthood, the time when I was looking best, been the most open to new things, had enough time, I spent it alone.
I wouldn't expect anything special. I don't even say I need to find a relationship right now. but I am sick of only talking to other women (irl) and never even getting the chance to see if there might be a chance for me.
had a nice chat with a lesbian girl the other night. I wish I were lesbian.