I dont think I took meds due to the fear that itd change me as who I am as if I would be the only the only person in the family who does. Just rationalize, what are thoughts? Thoughts are just things you think of nornally with no affect or trigger whatsoever. intrusive thoughts are just thoughts that bother and come up occasionally to really simplify it. What I did was close my eyes, and try to pass it off as a normal thought, not a bad thought, since then, I still have those thoughts now, but it doesn't bother me. I used to fear that if I got over my thoughts that I was opened to act on my violent thoughts, absolutely incorrect. I now am able to cope with it due to the fact of using logic. Dont think what if, think why? Why would I do that? if you cant answer that question the there is rational reason to harm anything or anyone. Additionally, the consequences within your actions, think about it, I hate to think deeper into my intrusive thoughts, but to think the consequences that come if I do them, really makes me switch gears on my mind. Hopefully some of this can help you, if not, there are many here who can help you. If an average lame butt guy like me can get over it, I assure you, you can too.
Same with the sleepwalking scare for me, but I realized that its 1 out of a billion jillion chances that is ever going to happen, Most of these thoughts come and night becyaee there nothing to occupy you but your sleep, giving you time to focus on your thoughts. Just hold on there Johnny, you got this!

I always related my intrusive thoughts to that one annoying kid in my class, if you dont do something about it, hes gonna keep throwing spitballs at you. LOL