I used to feel the same way when I was young and as somebody with disabilities I did my best to hide them from most people I knew with the exception of my best friend because a part of me was afraid of being bullied and ridiculed for having them like I was by my Dad but I have come to find the key to true happiness is learning how to love yourself and feel comfortable in your own skin and not caring about the way other people see you unless they are important to you. You sound like you are young so you have your whole future ahead of you to work this out but you need to have more confidence in yourself and stop surrounding yourself with negative thoughts.

Love will come.