Breezy~Day,
I really do understand where you are coming from. The negative self-talk, the downward spiral, the grey-colored glasses you begin to see the world through...I do it to myself, too, often without even realizing it. When I do notice my thoughts headed in that direction, I stop myself, and I focus with all my might on one thing that is going right in my life. I tell myself that these negative feelings will pass. It helps. Maybe doing something like that would help you, too?