My husband won't leave my daughter at home with me now. He says he's still shaken up about what he saw the other day, understandably.

I know there are consequences for my actions. Things could be a lot worse. He and my daughter could be gone or I could be sitting in jail. I will take these consequences happily and hope that things will improve as he slowly regains trust in me. I don't know if he will ever trust me completely again.

In the meantime I will try to make the best of my day sitting home alone. Maybe meditate and look for a new doctor online.

This is what got me in trouble to begin with-- all the sitting at home alone feeling lonely and hating myself. I need distractions.