I mentioned it to T but explained to her how I couldn't tell her what I did because I promised myself that I would not in order to prove to myself that i'm not attention seeking. She understood and didn't press the issues but says that i'm the opposite of an attention seeker/ I tend to withdraw...I wish I could believe her.

She did, however, point out that she wasn't surprised it happened as something that I think doesn't bother me has recently come up. She says I tend to shut down instead of allowing the feelings to come, and she may very well have a point.