While I am not just simply posting here and doing nothing with my life in trying to bring back my ability to experience pleasure (such as medication and therapy which are things I already tried and aren't working yet), I am posting here because I have a convincing reason that there might be a strong possibility that I will never get better. I really hope this is not the case and that you can somehow reason against this argument that I will now present here:

You might be thinking that over time as I continue to think positive and focus on other things and such, that this will bring back my ability to experience pleasure. Although this is something that would work if I were depressed, this is not something that is going to work for this numb feeling I'm having (which is not depression). Why I come to this conclusion is because my mind did not just shut down (numb) my ability to experience pleasure for no reason since any function of the mind is there for a very important reason and does not just simply occurr for no reason or for a pointless reason and that it can just go away or ease up by thinking positive and such over time (although this would be the case for depression in helping the depression get better, but not for this numb feeling). In shutting down my fear, my mind had to also shut down my ability to experience pleasure for a very important reason. That reason could be that, if my ability to experience pleasure were to be left on while my fear were to be shut down, that might of killed me, caused seizures, abnormalites in the brain, etc. Therefore, both the fear and my ability to experience pleasure had to be shut down.

So no matter how much I think positive and such over time, as long as my fear remains shut down, this is not going to restore my ability to experience pleasure because, again, if my ability to experience pleasure were to be turned on to any degree while my fear were to remain shut down, that would cause serious problems and there is no way the mind would ever do that because that is just how the mind works to protect you. I can even take supplements and everything including medication to try and restore my ability to experience pleasure, but this won't do anything as long as my fear remains fully shut down as it is now.

Now the reason my fear remains shut down (numb) in the first place is because I feel uncomfortable having these panic attacks and taking the risk of having many panic attacks each day for that matter. So my mind has decided to protect me from having these panic attacks since I feel uncomfortable. If I were to feel completely comfortable, that would be very likely to return my ability to experience pleasure as well as my panic. But since I feel that I will never be comfortable with this (and I don't think any human being would ever feel completely comfortable with something like this either, especially if it could mean having many upon many panic attacks each day), this is the reason why I feel that my ability to experience pleasure could forever remain shut down and never get better regardless of how positive I think and such over time.

Or maybe there could be ways to help me feel comfortable having panic. I know that exposure therapy is where you purposely try to make the panic happen as well as trying to feel comfortable having the panic as well. But this would be the only way for my ability to experience pleasure to return is if I were to instead cause my fear to return and, instead of focusing on my pleasure and how to make that return through thinking positive and such, I would have to instead focus on my fear and how to make myself panic as well as finding ways to help myself feel comfortable having the panic. But since I am treatment resistant in terms of panic disorder and can't be desensitized and such, will my ability to experience pleasure be restored or at least significantly restored anyway over time?

Also, even if I weren't treatment resistant in terms of panic disorder and still could never feel comfortable having these panic attacks, would my ability to experience pleasure be brought back anyway despite the fact that my fear remains fully shut down? Or is that something that is not possible to happen despite the fact that the mind is a very complex organ and has amazing ways to recover and such?