Thank you for the support and understanding. People have said it is my fault anf she has done nothing wrong but I would never encourage someone to bond with my kids and to love them if I had no intention of continuing the relationship. It isn't fair on them or me, you just don't do that to peoples hearts.
It is clear she has used me and now wants rid and that makes me feel more hurt then I can express in words. Her argument will be that the kids grew older and that is that but you don't encourage someone to love your children like family only to ditch them when it suits you and you personally no longer need that person. I wonder how she would like it if the tables were turned, it is ok for her, no heartache there but for me it is a different story.
I hope you are right that the kids will want to see me when they are older but I am guessing I will no longer be mentioned and they will forget me which brings tears to my eyes