Hi flours, sometimes there's not much more you can do than to cry, let it out and ride out the feelings as best you can, after you're tried everything else. It can sometimes help to talk though, and you know we're here for you/with you.........you're not alone
But can I just ask you about this bit "each time I succeed with something or think I'm doing better something happens to destroy it all", I know I may be wrong, but has anything happened recently to make you feel this way?

Alison