Right, this sounds like you're looking to make this departure personal and it is if you think like you do. In reality, the therapy would end over money... like a business transaction. Read what you just posted...can you see the erratic thoughts? Idk if this helps... I do a similar thing with guys...I make a reason for a relationship to end, then find a reason why the guy abandoned me and it's his fault. I don't control this well, but it's an attachment issue.