I don't think is a result of you being bad. Just chemicals in our brains misfiring. Hold on and tell those thoughts I said for them to go to h***. I'm not a bear but I can be pretty scary if I need to be.
You are too sweet to have to suffer so much.
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Bipolar I, Depression, GAD Meds: Zoloft, Zyprexa, Ritalin
"Each morning we are born again. What we do today is what matters most." -Buddha