Hi flours, I'm sorry, it must seem like everything is piling up on top of you (??) with no respite, hey?
But the lack of sleep in itself can't be helping. Is there anyone you could stay with for a few days or could you try to temporarily change your sleep pattern so as you're going to bed earlier and then not missing out on as much sleep?
And in between maybe try some headphones to block out the noise? Even music (something you have control over) might be better than the noise?
But these ugly truths.........are they really as ugly or as true as they're feeling, right now?? Or should I say, do they have to be as ugly or as true as they're feeling, right now??
Or even do you think that they need to be like that forever...........time/distance can sometimes change things.

Alison