Hi Alison,
thank you for your reply.
I just came back home yesterday. now and again I need to stay here. but I'm already thinking about leaving again. if I am away all the time this is causing other problems. don't know what's better.
I try to get more sleep. sometimes I don't wake up because of noise. I hope tomorrow I will sleep longer because it was so little today. thanks for reminding. I forget more often now that a lack of sleep makes me nervous because I always have a lack of sleep recently.
at the moment I am very sensitive and especially noise is stressful to me. sometimes I turn on the TV because it distracts me but it's not always enough.
the ugly truth I rather pretend not to know- it is about how I feel about my possible future and what that will be. sure emotions can change but I don't know how chances are these are going to change. have been there before depression. can't run away forever. but now I just can't stand all this.
these things make me break down each time I get in touch with them.