You are not alone, Shakespeare47. I too was diagnosed with Complex PTSD at 27 yrs after being abused in every way by more than 13 abusers, and prior to 10 more years of domestic violence where everything but actual death occurred.
We are here for you and know the anguish of reliving experiences as though they are happening right now.
Don't lose courage as you take a step at a time. Often a day or an hour at a time is much too long to get through. There is hope in the journey!