Got some pure alprazolam, mixed and placed on blotter paper. Took one earlier and it knocked me out for the whole day, still a little woozy. Apparently they're 1.5mg per blotter but they are much more potent. Got a good few, really shouldn't have this stuff lying around as I have a history of taking pretty serious overdoses (hence why I'm on a depot). Can't bring myself to throw them out :/ Not thinking about suicide at the moment, nor have I been for a few weeks. I am a silly billy :P

EDIT: not bothered starting a new thread but do benzos generally give people that complete 'lack of emotion' feeling? I'm not feeling depressed, just... nothing, though it's not nice.