I'm sorry to hear this happened to you. I do agree to move slowly, and not rush into anything.

If you want to be with your ex-boyfriend, I suggest keeping in contact with him, but don't move into real-life contact just yet. If you're going for a divorce, get that done first.

The biggest issue is probably employment. I understand being afraid and worrying about your lack of recent employment. I haven't worked in several years, and have very little experience, as it is.

You can't count on your ex taking care of you, because you could jump into a relationship with him, and have it not work out, and then you're back in the same boat. I don't know how close you are to him, but if he's doing ok financially, he might be willing to help you out a bit, but you should still work on finding some income. If you have good job skills, you might be able to find work quickly. Good luck.