It's really amazing that I ever got married. I was such a loner for so long.
But, now, other than a social group I just started doing some things with, I don't have any friends.
I've been friendless for a very long time. and no, I don't have anyone to call up. I've pushed people away, and then later regretted it. It's tough..

I do have some hopes for this new group I'm a part of. And I plan on continuing to reach out, in little ways... I can try too hard, and that just makes things worse.

I already have an escape plan in place, in case things don't work out with this new group...

I've even considered starting up my own small group through meetup.com. Maybe a book club, or maybe I can find some people to play board games, something along those lines...