I accidently burnt myself making supper; I am covered in blisters. It still hurts like a sun of a ......! So I end up purging; took lax; and feeling like self harm. Not suicide; but hurting. Is this dumb or what. I am so angry at not paying attention to what I was doing, now I am thinking this. I do not understand. I know it was an accident; why do I feel this way. I think back to me ex; how abusive he was. I remember when I burnt supper and he was not pleasant about it; to put it lightly; It keeps playing in my mind. I dont know; confused.

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