I'm not getting either. I'm just rotting in my own head everyday. It seems like trying to get help just ends up making me feel worse about myself. I don't want to get out of bed. I'd like to talk later if you really want to talk but I am not sure how I would explain myself. I'm a broken record and I am just an endless all-consuming vortex. At least that is how I feel about myself because I can never seem to get better and I feel like I have a brain malfunction when it comes to functioning like a normal person. I just can't stand being in my skin.