I've got a week and a half to go before I will see her again, so there is that much time to think about it. I've considered telling her about that the last few times I was there, but there were more pressing issues, and my mind went blank on this one.

I would hope that she would listen, and we could talk this through, and I could leave feeling like she does care. Then I would be fine. But if I felt rejected, or if she threatened to terminate, that would probably be dangerous and I'm not sure that letting me drive home would be smart. I would have to drive home though - there aren't any other good options.

Weekly sessions don't seem to be an option, for three reasons. My insurance would run out; and driving out there and back even though I have moved and it isn't quite as far now, it's still 7 hours for driving time and session time, and I don't have that much time every week; and her schedule fills up too - she couldn't get me in every week. Because of scheduling issues and having to cancel once for my brother's funeral, I had to wait 3 weeks once last month, and then would have had to wait 3 weeks again except that I took a day off during the week once (3 weeks is way too long). She couldn't fit me in more than she is right now.

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