If you can find him Therapy for 20.00 .. You need Therapy just as much as he does. Maybe start calling now to set up an appt for you ? You need Therapy just as much if not more than he does.

Right now you are hurt and your not going to trust him about this issue... It would be natural to having panic issues about it... But you still have to cope with YOUR reactions to it..You need to find a way to cope while he is seeking therapy and hopefully wanting to quit his "addiction" to porn.

Therapy for you is going to help you learn a way to stay mentally healthy while allowing him to work on the problems that he has... that effect you so much that your physically sick over it.

This is not going to be a quick fix.. these things take time.

I hope your able to find some relief from the panic and anxiety