Sunrise, yes, she kept telling me to re-write things because I wasn't getting it. And I think that she didn't believe that I didn't understand what she wanted. I did so much better as a student taking a class from her than I ever do in therapy - she is suspicious of that major discrepancy. I guess I ought to do as well in therapy and dealing with my own life, but it isn't so easy. She knows that I'm a graduate student, in training to become a therapist myself, and she expects me to apply that to my own process. That's reasonable - I should be able to use my own training. Why I don't is a big puzzle we're working on.