im meeting T tomorrow at noon. i think it will be our last time meeting in that office. i wonder if anything will still be in there? maybe we will go to the swings. im sure we are gonna talk about his sliding scale. so that makes me nervous. also i met with my recovery coach today. she was really confused and kind of freaking out about being in the dark regarding my plans. i think she thought that i was leaving the program very soon. i tried to tell her that it wasnt going to happen for a while. well she ended up calling T and they talked about it. T explained to her that we are just in the brainstorming phase. that no plans are set yet about aftercare. he told her the plan is that i will see the other T within the program and see him outside of it. T also mentioned to my coach about the possibility of her working with me individually outside of the program if she was willing to do that. so i think (and hope) that my coach will accept and come up with a reasonable fee for that.

things are changing so fast but not really. it just feels like they are. the only thing changing right now is where im gonna meet T at. and the financial stuff.