You're not a failure. Taking meds to help you get better is not a sign of failure. It's a step towards being able to live a fuller life. I had to take them almost every day (0.5 mg usually) for a couple of years. When my anxiety level is high, they really do help. If it wasn't for Clonazepam, I'm pretty sure I would still be agoraphobic. They also help to filter out the sensory overload I get when my inner ear is acting up. I'm down to just one or two a week now. I'm hoping I can stay at that level or... even better, not need them at all some time soon. I'm pleased that I've never felt like I'm addicted to them. That was a big fear when I started taking them.