I feel like the only reason I'm even sitting here researching therapists in my area is that I want someone to care about me. I've always pathetically longed for that since I was a kid. I used yto watch TV shows like 7th Heaven and Growing Pains and think, "Why can't I just have parents who love me like the families on TV?" or "Why am I not good enough for my parents to hug me?" Then that changed into "Everyone else has boyfriends who are affectionate toward them. Why am I not good enough to be attractive to a guy who will love me?" I'm 24 years old and still feel like a little girl begging someone to care that she exists. I am sorry, I know I sound like a needy idiot right now.

Someone tell me this is a stupid idea that isn't going to work before I waste anymore money on therapy.