wow Perna, are you reading my mind? i'm trying to write a paper right now too. only... here i am procrastinating... i've got under a week to do it methinks... eep... time to get my skates on. if anybody sees me posting they really should slap my wrist... but you describe the flip flop of resistence and disappointment and motivation quite well. when i'm actually working i feel great and i really do love what i do. getting to that point... is such a struggle, however. such a struggle...