Hi all,
I'm in a massive quandary. I have been referred to the psychiatrist, no one knows how long it will be. The doctor says it could be at least a few weeks.

I am seriously yo-yoing with my moods. I get up and feel ok. Have a massive crash about 10/11 am and end up worrying how i'll possibly manage for another hour. Then I pick up again in the evening.

I'm off work at the moment. I am a nurse and have had 2 periods of long term sick in the last 18 months so I feel like ideally need to be back ASAP. I've had 2 weeks off so far this (3rd) episode.

I just can't tell if I can manage with work. I feel like I'm going crazy sometimes and have paranoid thoughts and feel like I may be dissociating a bit (I honestly don't know if it's me or I actually am) I have the most bizarre dreams and have had a few times when I couldn't remember if something was true or it was a dream I had, and I just don't know what to do with myself. The GP has limited help as I'm on the limit of medication I can be prescribed. I keep going hoping for an olive branch but instead they just say keep on powering through.

Tl;dr I dunno if I can go back to work, what advice or experience can you give me?

Sorry it's a long one.