I don't really have friends anymore. I tend to isolate and drive people away. I tried the obamacare thing. The website told me to apply for medicaid and medicaid denied my application. Now the window for Obamacare is closed. Talk therapy has never worked for me anyway. I'm not much of a communicator either. Too many trust issues. I would desperately love to get back on my meds though. Funny that when I was on them how much I hated them, it's only now that I'm drowning in this abyss that I realize they're probably all that can save me.