i know what nightmares feel like. especially ones that seem so real. i was excited to read that you also write poetry. it is something i also like to do. here's one i wrote after awakening from such a nightmare and in a full blown panic attack....maybe you can understand.

i feel the pressure coming down upon my head,
submerging my face beneath the dark water,
no air, can't breathe,
holding it and holding it.
my hands grasping up into the air,
searching for something to hang onto.
my eyes buldging,
my ears ringing,
the pain in my chest becomes overwhelming,
wanting desperately to gasp for air.
and then realizing i could die,
the panic sets in,
the fear races through my veins,
my heart pounding likea big bass drum,
all the time never seeing,
never knowing who's hand held me.
then with a jerk i awaken.
sweat drenched clothes,
trembling hands, eyes wide open.
it still feels so real.

lots of love to you jinny
recluse1