Massage and therapy are actually both excellent forms of self-care. (I'll accept the caveat that it's not idea to only use these forms of care, that building relationships is also really important but like someone else said, no need for this to be an either/or dilemma.) Nothing wrong with hiring a masseuse or a therapist to receive nurturing. I hope you'll start feeling comfortable enough with your weight to try massage again if it helped you before. I'm overweight too but so are many massage clients and it's never come up as an issue. I find it very helpful.